Getting The D: What It Means, What It Doesn't

Hi. Hello. Bonjour. Hallo. Hola. Aloha.

I'd say 'Hello' in a few other languages, but it would probably be a waste of my time and yours. If you're reading this, you're either a friend, follower (see also: friend), stalker or have just fallen into the depths of the internet. In either case, thank you for reading this far, the fact anyone could be reading this right now means a lot to me. I won't keep you waiting for the money shot, so I'll just start off with it loud and clear: I have depression

Shocking considering the header image, no? </sarcasm>

It's something I've only truly come to terms with in the past few months - which has honestly been the darkest time of my life - something that I don't take lightly, so if I ever get deep in my writing, it's just me expressing how I feel and I won't apologise for it. I've recently started to seek help for depression after months (and when I think about it, years) of trying to hide it from sight in anyway possible, and my first hopeful step in working through this bitch of a disorder is this little blog; a place for my thoughts, struggles, maybe somewhere to clear my mind of everything too.

I'm sure someone could be reading this and thinking "get over it!" Depression isn't that easy. I sure wish it were. It isn't something that can be cured by smiling or somebody saying "be happy", it's a condition that stays with you, haunts you and makes you feel like you don't even deserve to survive anymore. It weighs you down and suffocates you, regardless of what you try to do to take your mind off of it. It makes you want to do things you could have never fathomed yourself doing...but I'll talk about that another time. When I'm ready to.

If you've made it this far, then thank you and I love you for opening yourself up to a strangers struggles; and if you were brought here by the blog title Getting The D, then you probably clicked away the moment there were no dicks in sight - Sorry, you'll get over it. Hopefully I will too.

- Chris